eugh. i'm so disgusted with myself. i don't think i actually weigh that much. i think it's water weight and bloating from my stupid monthly you-know-what. besides that, i'm sicker than a dog. i think i have a stomach virus. but lucky for me i can't keep anything down. i wonder how long it will last? anyway, i'm nervous. i am going to ask this boy i like to prom. i know, guttsy, huh? i'm still trying to figure a way to ask him in a cool, cute way. not that he'll say yes. i mean, i'm fucking huge! and he's all fit and gorgeous. eugh. i hate this. oh and to make matters worse, i've got baked potatoes and chocolate cake staring me down. grrr. i'm fasting today and tomorrow. then i'm going to start a juice fast. i just don't want to eat actual food. with the juice fast, i'm going ot stay under 500 cals and water the juice down so i'm not getting as many calories. i hate being fat. i might post some thinspo tomorrow, so look forward to that. today is going to be tough while i'm puking my guts out.
i hate being sick.
and it's sick how i love it at the same time.
~Annabella~
about me
- annabella
- seattle, washington
- i've been vegan as well as ana/mia for a little over two years now. i hate the way i look. i hate my weight. i hate my body. i hate the face that stares back at me everyday in the mirror. i hate what people say about my weight. i hate the comments that my mother makes. but i'm going to show them what a few snide comments, what a few dirty looks, what a few fat jokes can do. i'm going to show them. i'm going to show them all.
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